A Lot of Why’s for Cupid

Why can’t I stop thinking of him?

Why do I care about him too much?

Why do I like him, love him?

Why do I still long to be his friend?

Why won’t I quit?

Most important of all, why does it have to be him?

What I Want

I want to let him know that I still haven’t given up but I couldn’t.  I want him to feel my presence even if he doesn’t want it.  I want him to see that I am still here, waiting for him.  I want him to know that I LOVE HIM.  This is all your fault, Cupid!  What I want won’t ever happen…

What was I thinking?  Hoping still… Not making efforts to forget and move on… Clinging on something that isn’t really there… Staying in the past… Not facing reality… Thinking that maybe things will change… Believing we had something…

Is There Hope?

When should I stop hoping?  How can I tell if there's no more chance, even just a little tiny one that things would change? And I was thinking if I can undo one thing, which would it be?  Probably would be making myself totally fall for him.  It was a big mistake! I wouldn’t have traded that for our friendship.  But everything is too late.  Can’t undo what has been done.  But should I still hope?

Self-Containment

What kind of love or attraction is this? I can’t even tell myself to STOP!
To stop thinking about him…
To stop dreaming about him…
To STOP LOVING HIM…

Sometimes, I feel I need to lock myself up inside a padded room with a strait jacket like the ones in the mental asylum. Maybe there, I’ll learn how to hold back.

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Cupid's Mistake

About a year ago, Cupid made a mistake of hitting me with an arrow and making me fall for someone I'm not supposed to be falling in love with. Days turned to weeks. Weeks turned to months. A year has passed and I still feel the same way about him. Yes, I still love him even if he doesn't love me.